tres chic

not feeling that way
at all

but i should
be living
in the present.

feel less
stress
with
feeling in
the present.

i don't know
about that.
---
in my spare
time
i like to browse
airplane trips
to see how much
it would cost to
go to my dreams.
---
this is an
interesting concept
that more people
should think about
investing in.
i mean, people
love to feel
good about doing good.
---
oh, i love
these types o'
peeps.
---
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!love!

i !love! nerds
and they're
nerdy passions/discoveries.










seriously.
but this maybe
b/c i'm just a
wannabe/part-time
nerd,
myself.

this is from

a lovely

artist

who makes

sweet candy

confectioner-like

paintings.




i'm feeling a little
hurried.

today's whatever

i AM getting it
done
b/c it has to be
done.

some articles
i've read
this morning...

also a
beautiful place
i found that
i wouldn't
expect to find
if i had been
looking for it.

and here's some
friggin awesome
diy projects that
i really want to
try out.


this video is funny
[and the narrator
is even funnier (sounding)]

the wishlist

....
sewing machine
turntable
scanner
printer
yards of fabric
nice view
plenty of flexibility
drifting thoughts
paint
h2o
wood
sunshine
camera
good run
petite waistline
awesome convo
. . . this
is a large portion
of what would make
me happy.

poop, no?

i'm trying to focus
but i keep on splashing
coffee everywhere,
on the desk,
on my chest,
and most recently
on my eyelids.

coffee stains
everywhere,
especially in my
writing.
---
little children
petting a stuffed
dog,
wishing they had
a real dog.
pulling on its
leash.
thoughts of
playing catch
permeate
their imaginations.
---
i need some images.
---
would
ali baba
do this?
---
found two
ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS
creative sites.
i LOVE this one,
called burdastyle.
free/really cheap patterns.
makes me want to sew!
;)
---
and now for some
other things:
this is a super-cute
teapot;
and she's a super-cute
maker of jewelry;
oh,
how i <3
etsy.

beaucoup!

omg!
so many things
to write/think/spurt about.

for one, i'm really
cold.
my office is freezing.
maybe men are just
naturally more
warm than women...

anyways,
first off,
i love my sister-in-law.
she's the loveliest person out
there right now.
she's started a blog as well
and has put mine on it
[linking it]. :)
she's also going to the
windy city this weekend,
which i am super
jealous/happy of/for her.

also, i have found this
super awesome thing.
i used to have two
pen-pals when i was in
fifth grade. they lived in
california and both were
japanese. i do miss them.
i still have their letters,
and think about them
when i think about california.
anyways, this website is
somewhat like pen-palling.
it's called postcrossing
and the first thing i do
tonight when i get home
is write up some postcards to these
peeps.
i'll be sending postcards to people in
austria, germany, finland, pennsylvania,
and russia! fun & exciting experiment!

i've also been using this
semi-social networking site.
kinda like facebook
but more simple.
the website say it's
more about social networking
and finding more people in your field.
things of that nature.
i'm not sure about it right now.
i think i'm still getting my feet wet.

i also thought this blogger
has some neat ideas.
although, they're ones
i've already heard of
somewhat.

there are lots of new plans
traveling at the speed of light
through my mind right now.
they're going so fast,
i'm not sure how to organize them
and what to think about them.
this disorganized madness within
my head is thinking a lot about
different things, one of which is this
cheap airline. but it only flies
out of particular cities.
but it's an interesting idea to
ponder on.

...one of these ideas
traveling not only in my
mind
but also
in the entirety of
my body
is wwoofing.
this is where you help
out organic farms
and learn about organic
farming techniques
all around the world
and the farms will
give you
shelter and usually some food.
some will even give you money,
how about that.
anyways, i've been wanting to do
something on my own
where i can learn all sorts of
crazy shit.
and i thought wwoofing in
hawaii
might be the answer.
maybe.
there are things to
figure and work out.
but it's a possibility.

...and then there's my
nearly continuous inward search
of the outward job market.
the right, at least temporarily, job
for me. i'm disliking with a passion
my job right now.
although it's not bad at
all
and it has amazing
flexibility.
i'm looking at some
publishing jobs...
editing and whatnot.
but i don't think they'd be as
flexible.
but i might like what i'd be doing more.
maybe.
ideally, i'd love to
just do freelance work.
freelance,
lance,
lance.
i think can,
i just have to figure out
how i can.

and i've been
wanting
to post some pics
i've taken
recently.
this i will do,
too,
when i get home. :)

a twist of events

a process:
diet pills
inspiration
work out
control
motivation
hypnosis
body wrap
continued healthiness
sexy man abs
drool
want
& arms
drool
thin
firm
hottt

create
imagine
draw
add colour
apply
sew
combine
voila
sigh
gaze
hope
contemplate
put away
format
submit
cross fingers
giggle
palpitate
---
super cute buttons!

global aspirations

china: who would've thought
you would take such breathtaking
steps to help the planet?
---
wouldn't you want
a magnetic curtain?
---
sick...

c'est ca

nouvelle

i've really been into
doing-it-yourself recently.

it gets me really excited to
think about making something
from relative scratch and
turning into something
fully functional.

i finally bought the items
required to build cute
cubbie containers.
so that will happen this week.

i've also been drawing & painting
on a more regular basis.
so i have some images of that going on.

i also have a meeting with
the director of the art dept.
at UNCA, which i'm trying to
schedule right now.
i'm super excited about it,
but really nervous.
b/c i also think i'd be
a pretty awesome english teacher.
but mostly i think it's fear and doubt
that is making feel this way.
but also it's the stress i've been feeling
from the most strong and utmost desire
to do a full-time/almost full-time thing
with this schooling.
every once and a while the little chick in the back of my
head comes raging forward it's insecurities.
this chick is deathly afraid of being stuck.
being stuck being the one who hasn't
fully pursued her education,
being the one who is stuck cleaning
the house, the dishes, etc.
being something that is just not in her cards.
this chick makes me just absolutely
freak out sometimes.
and this happened recently.
the chick forced me to speak/freak/peak.
but, once again, i've been reassured
that i can follow my dreams,
my goals.
he loves me enough to say that.
i hope that he loves me enough to believe that.
i just am scared about work.
how in the hell can i work enough to make money/
make them happy/keep my uprising position, go to school
enough to make me happy/feel like i'm learning/progressing/
feeling efficient/feeling like i can keep up with the additional work,
keep a clean and relatively tidy apt. & have a safe
and healthy/loving/romantic/passionate/supportive relationship
all at the bloody same time?

so i made a plan-ish thing.
a 5-year goal thing-y.
in five years i'll be 28.
five years ago i was 18.
eek.
anyways,
in this thing-y i made some goals...
[which included]
-BFA [@ AB-Tech & UNCA...3yrs.]
-MFA [@ Goddard for Interdisciplinary Arts...2yrs.]
-ride a bike [you'd think i would remember, but i don't]
-drive a stick [get 'r' done]
-be @ 130 lbs. [it's def. possible]
-network ass off [more difficult...i don't LOVE talking to new people]
-submit work to mags, etc. [easy to do if the motivation is there...getting it accepted is another thing...]
-sell/offer services/work [use the internet, bitchesss]
-have/tend own garden [sweet, no?]
-keep a portfolio [should be easy enough w/my organizational skills]

lots to think about.
lots,
lots
lots.

les returne

back to the grind...

the time off was a much
welcomed and need occurrence.
i got to spend some
quality time with my
lover's mother & sister
[who are absolutely lovely people].

she [the sister]
has given me couple new links
to be addicted to,
which have been taking up
my [not-so-] spare time.
i, of course,
have shared with her a new
mag./website i found
that i am currently obsessed with.
---
& now,
it's twittering away.
---
it's sad
the ways
of the day.
---
if i ever have to drive
a car of my own
one day
it must be an electric car,
hybrid,
or [more preferably]
a solar-powered car.
...i'm waaay into
solar/wind[are]
energy. :)
---
btw:
this is how
the south gets down ;)

ole' rockytop

i shall be venturing
to the good ole'
state of tn this evening.

and i'm rather
quite excited about it.

mostly,
b/c
it means a glorious 5 days
of relaxation,
good eating,
& french accents.

and what could make a girl happier
than that?
---
i'm feeling like
absolute blubber.
i've been eating like
an unreasonable pig.
[are there reasonable pigs?]
& then i took a bath last night
[the 1st time in a wk or so, ewww]
and looked down at myself.
it was gross.
just a raft of
floating fat.
---
back to digging shit:
like this
& that.
---
i've just moved
into a new office,
and it's a little cold
in here.
but i like the new open space
with bright colors and
many windows.
a ginormous improvement
over our last one
with one window
and varying shades of
gray walls.
---
the rest of this week
is bound to be fun.
it's planned with bike
rides in the park,
a good white trash party,
a play or a rodeo,
lots of lounging and eating fresh french food,
and sunshine;
there shall be sunshine.

qui est la fanatique?

in the u.s. today
really, truly believing in something = fanatic.

there are
environmental fanatics,
religious fanatics
and
sports fanatics -
to name a few.

but i must say
the only ones not
being wildly and widely criticized
are the sports fanatics.

yesterday, after having
quite a good release,
i started formulating
how i yearn to be in the art
world.
i know i should take this
one step @ time,
but like i always do...
i think ahead,
sometimes too much.

i started thinking
where does everything come from?
how is it made?
how does its production
impact the planet?
how can we reuse & recycle more
and consume less?
how can i create
with what i already have?
where does everything go
when it's thrown away
or recycled?
how can we stop the
useless concept of
throwing away
and introduce & spread
the revolutionary and practical concept of
reusing, recycling & reducing?

buying new things
will not fill that
gaping hole within us.
shopping ourselves into
oblivion
will not make
everything disappear,
surprisingly.
buying all the
environmental,
sustainable,
organic
and green products
WILL NOT SAVE
our planet.
---
but why must passion
be considered wrong,
crazy, &
looked down upon?

passion fills me
from within
and is aching
to take a
furious hop,
jump &
a skip, as well.

b/c
what is life
w/out some
furious skipping?
---
and giraffes.
i think i'd like to do something
with giraffes.
big, beautiful graceful
creatures
that seem so light to me,
yet so strong.
---
and let's not forget
the circus.
who doesn't have fun
at the circus?
---
oh dear, dear, dear...
i think
i may
be a vegetarian again.
or at least
a conscious meat eater.
i stumbled upon this story
about the beef recall,
and the story had videos
to go along with it... :(





---
and one last thing:
thinking about
experimental architecture.
two names stand out:
archigram
&
mass studies.
both very cool,
both using innovative
concepts that originate
from the planet,
nature,
& simplicity.